SUNSHINE

I normally treat other people the way I want to be treated. 

But all these thieving scoundrels have made me feel defeated. 

I try to counteract widespread cruelty with acts of kindness.

It seems I've been suffering from a naive kind of blindness.

I'm so sick of their heartless ways, especially all the lying.

That's why I spent last night all broken, suicidal and crying. 

Every time I open my door there are people scoping out and prying.

I'm an easy target for those without morals, there's no denying.

Why ever happened to rules of engagement: no honour among thieves.

The things these arseholes have done to me, you would not believe. 

So I'm not sure now if I want to live or simply die in an opiate overdose.

I'm not cut out to handle this relentless abuse because I'm weaker than most.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.

So many times they've gone too far like toast that's burnt.

You'd think by now that this fool would have surely learnt

Not to be kind and generous towards wolves in sheep's clothing.

It merely leave me in a state of rage, despair and loathing.

Every time it happens again I ask myself "what was I thinking"?

As the ship of complacency I've been sailing on starts sinking.

And the same patterns of abuse and manipulation keep on repeating. 

The culprits are probably so proud of themselves they start boasting.

My mother keeps telling me to be weary of others’ ulterior motives.

If I'd only listened to her, this heartache wouldn't be so massive.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.

If I can't even trust my supposed friends, then who to trust?

Don't let the fuckheads break me in the end, now that's a must.

Now is not the time to go back into my shell and pretend

That everything will be alright if I simply let go and built a fence.

Nothing will change for the better until I put up some barrier.

And become weather proof and resilient like a seasoned warrior.

Time to erect some boundaries to protect against enemies

No longer will take me for a ride and do what they fancy.

For I will march on with the determination of a one man army.

To let them get away with such exploitation, that would be crazy.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.