STANDING ON THE EDGE

Lately I’ve been through some dark times, committing thought crimes in my twisted mind
Unjustly forced to save up all my dimes to pay off government fines for standing out of line
But I refuse to let it change me, even rehab can’t save me until I start to finally face me
I must soldier on bravely, braver than I’ve been lately, so that wolves can no longer play me
It’s high time that I actually move it when I say I’m going to do it, finally turn my life around
In good time, I’ll be able to stop it, won’t come as a shock when I rock it to the other sound
A life that isn’t constantly in strife, hanging by a knife’s edge, while standing on a perilous ledge
A time for me to shine with a clear mind, doing my best to pass the test and bring about success
A period for me to confess to myself and repent all the nonsense, no longer do things to excess
I feel blessed that I’m not like the rest of my kind, for I’m still free most of the time in my mind

ONE EYE OR TWO

They treat you as if you’re completely inept, as they try to control your every move, step by step
Into all areas, they have crept, they throw everything at you that’s of use, and they just don’t relent
Think they’ve got you, except you are free in your mind any time, clear away that mountain of debt
That they’ve made you collect, time theft is their repeat crime, and it’s time for you to repent
Never again will you let them defeat you or bring out your worst, let it slide just like the waters of zen
For you have the ability to rise above, even though it’s tough, as they push you to full capacity
Don’t lose your cool or you let them win, doesn’t mean you have to defend their nonsense 
You just have to find your peace within, know that what’s taking place isn’t a life sentence
Though they stain your days with shitty weather, they won’t get away with throwing turds forever
We will fight them tooth and nail together, break you out from jail, yes we’ll make things better

They'd better fucking watch it because we've fucking just about had it
Chilli sauce in every sachet, that shit, it really burns a hole in their plans
They can shove it where you shove their carrots because we’ve fucking had it
Got plenty of packets to share until they begin to understand 
That we mean business when we say we won’t take it anymore
That we’re here for good and we’re here to settle many scores

One day soon you shall have your cake and eat it too, for freedom is what I’m gonna be bringing to you
And they shall have their just desserts and it’ll taste just like pet food that’s been drowned in a loo
They will not get away with the shit they’ve dumped upon you, not for one more single day more
We’re gonna make them pay for their cruel, torturous ways, we’ll come back to settle the score
With the power and might of all that is good and right on our side, we will reclaim for you some pride
No longer will you have to be all twisted and frustrated inside, two fisted celebration in the night
As we take them for all that we can, until we make them understand that their actions they can’t defend
We’ll stick it right to the man, who treated you with underhanded arrogance, born to be free in the end
And you will be, that much I can guarantee, just between you and me, I’ve seen all that I can stand to see
Cruelty to the utmost degree, the spreading of misery and disease, we won’t be kind to our enemies

They'd better fucking watch it because we've fucking just about had it
Chilli sauce in every sachet, that shit, it really burns a hole in their plans
They can shove it where you shove their carrots because we’ve fucking had it
Got plenty of packets to share until they begin to understand 
That we mean business when we say we won’t take it anymore
That we’re here for good and we’re here to settle many scores

What’s with this legal guardian bullshit? That fat fuck deserves to be hit with some dirty hep C fits
Don’t they realise that human rights exist, but they are removing yours as they keep on doing it
Making decisions on your behalf, no doubt having a good laugh at the misery they be inflicting
They could all do with an antiseptic bath, right before we lose the plot and give them a good knifing
One day soon we shall have our revenge on a system that grants seemingly arbitrary powers of abuse
To those who use pills they’ve written up for themselves to cure their ills, just so they can ruin lives
With impunity, making existence for you a misery, trying their darndest to make you blow your fuse
When we strike out, we won’t have to scream and shout, in silence we’ll make sure nobody survives
They’ve taken you for a ride and tried to strip you of all pride inside, but now your eyes are open wide
It’s time for you to decide whether you wanna take out one eye or two for every time that they’ve lied

They'd better fucking watch it because we've fucking just about had it
Chilli sauce in every sachet, that shit, it really burns a hole in their plans
They can shove it where you shove their carrots because we’ve fucking had it
Got plenty of packets to share until they begin to understand 
That we mean business when we say we won’t take it anymore
That we’re here for good and we’re here to settle many scores

PEN AND PAPER

If I ever stopped writing with this pen and expressing how I was feeling
It would probably spell the end of my freedom and I would wind up in prison
For committing uncharacteristic acts of violence against countless others
Who have done me wrong in a sad, druggie song, guilty as charged ever after
Yes, it would spell disaster for anyone who has ever truly fucked me over
For everyone snaps if pushed too far, even when their head is dead set sober
If not for the violent fantasies I have unashamedly expressed on paper
Bloodshed would now be reality, as I would no longer be doing any favours
Artistic expression in the form of rap has been mine and others’ saviour
Not everybody’s favourite flavour, but it has prevented potential mass slaughter

SO FUCKING HARD TO FIND

There’s a certain special lady whose loving kindness saves me and buffers me

From the bleak reality that otherwise is my life, which is always in strife

The way she treats me drives my heart crazy, and helps to spare me from suffering

So grateful for her decency and generosity, it’s helped to revive my faith in humanity

What we have between us is immutable, provides strength in a world so insufferable

Our connection transcends the passing sands of time, yes, it shall always stand

No matter which direction our lives may well take, that much is indisputable

We both pretty much hate most of humanity and prefer the company of animals

What we have goes beyond the physical and into other higher realms

The emotional and spiritual ones, no longer are we empty like discarded sea shells

I fell for her, just as I was falling from grace in the eyes of those around me

If not for her in my reality, my life would be a complete and utter misery

She is always on my mind, for someone like her is so fucking hard to find

Even if I run out of time, she will forever be etched into the forefront of my mind

When I first met her, she told me that others had hurt her in the past and badly too

I could relate to her pain and told her such treatment was fucked up, just like angry youth

Since I’ve fallen for her, I’ve done whatever I can to help make her understand

That I would never do anything to intentionally harm her in any way, shape or form

Tried my best to convince her that things between us will depart from established norms

Things would be different from on, no longer would she be caught in the eye of a storm

She probably had a hard time believing that when I was generous towards her

That I wasn’t just in it just so I could get inside her pussy, but another way to enter

In due time, I managed to get across a different message and eventually win her over

She later told me that she knew I was special when she realised I wasn’t like all of the others

I fell for her, just as I was falling from grace in the eyes of those around me

If not for her in my reality, my life would be a complete and utter misery

She is always on my mind, for someone like her is so fucking hard to find

Even if I run out of time, she will forever be etched into the forefront of my mind

It really came as a surprise to me that she knew of Mac Miller through her older brother

In good time, we both realised that we weren’t out to simply use one another

For whatever one could provide the other with, the usual stuff: sex, drugs or money

We both shared a common enemy: disgust at the misery brought about by humanity

It was clear from the start that she wasn’t like all of the other girls out there

I could leave my drugs and coin laying around and she wouldn’t touch it: now, that’s rare

All those scoundrels out there who have ever fucked with either of us had better beware

I’m so glad now that I took it slow with her and didn’t push things or rush it up the stairs

While time waits for no one, it waited for the two us and granted us this opportunity

To make hay while the sun still shines, to care deeply for each other and to be happy

I fell for her, just as I was falling from grace in the eyes of those around me

If not for her in my reality, my life would be a complete and utter misery

She is always on my mind, for someone like her is so fucking hard to find

Even if I run out of time, she will forever be etched into the forefront of my mind

HATE SONGS

It wasn't always this way
When I asked you to make songs with me
About how much we hated humans.
I knew I liked you then
But never in that typical way
That you would have gotten
From most guys who you crossed paths with.
Back then, I just knew that you were a decent person
And that you were broken
And hurting the same way that I was hurting.
Never would I have imagined
That you would have won me over
The way that you have now.
My heart is all yours for the taking,
For you have touched a place in it
That few have ever managed to do.
The fact of the matter is that I have fallen for you.
Well and truly, I have.
This is now indisputable.
I just can't stop thinking about you.
There's no doubt about it:
It's unavoidable for me.
And who would want to stop the momentum
When it feels so fucking good and so fucking right.
What it is that we have, that is.
What we have between us without ever having fucked.
It's just as well this way.
It means what we have transcends mere physical attraction,
That we care for each other
on a level few others' connections can match.
It's more than about merely sex.
It's about what each has done for the other
And is willing to do for the other.
Our connection is deeper than the physical.
I can feel it in every pore of my being and your being,
Even though I've never touched you really.
Why would I want or need to do that anyway
When you've already touched me
In ways I never expected in the beginning.
For you've well and truly touched my heart
In ways that I never imagined possible.
Oh, the things you have done for me,
And continue to do for me,
Are well and truly incredible
And will forever be etched into my heart.
We could do so many amazing things together
Once our efforts to be together are no longer frustrated
By circumstances beyond our control.
Especially hospital authorities
Which delight in making both our lives a misery.
But I will not rest until our right to be happy together
Is more than just wishful thinking,
But actually a reality that we live out
In each and every waking moment.
With the power of all that is good on our side,
I know that this will happen one day
And that day will be best.

NO WAY IN HELL

Since you have become a regular fixture in my reality
My life has changed for the better
Even though circumstances have taken a turn for the worse
You make an otherwise bleak existence worth bearing
Yes, you provide me with a reason for being
To make sure that you are safe and sound
And able to derive at least some pleasure from life
Even though they are doing their best
To make your life a complete misery
I hurt when you are hurting 
And it drags me down when you are down
I just want for you to be happy by my side
For the both of us to care for and look after one another
I would walk from one end of the earth to the other
If it meant that you would be happy forever after
Life could be so simple and so wonderful 
If not for others’ attempts to keep us apart
They can all get fucked as far as I’m concerned
Oh, why do they have to keep doing this to you? 
Why are they treating you as if you were incompetent
And unable to make decisions for yourself?
This could not be further from reality
It really irks me so, to the point of resenting them
For how much they have fucked with you
It’s simply not fair, nor is it justifiable by any measure
It’s just dragging you down and making your life hell
But we shall overcome and we shall do it together
We won’t let the fascists tell us what to do
No way in hell will we let them keep us apart
For you and I belong together, perhaps forever
We will rise above everything they try to throw at us
Even if it’s the kitchen sink or some stupid legal order
One day soon, we shall be safe in each other’s arms
And we will show them how fucking happy we can be
Fuck them all and fuck what they think about us

HUMANKIND

I'm so sick of humans right now
And their slimy, conniving, lying ways.
The next one who tries to fuck me over
Is going to get a hep C syringe in the eye.
Make no fucking mistake.
And that's all I've got to say
To the whole lot of you scum.

STOP SIGN

Did you witness me fall from grace in an all too swift demise?

Surrounded by vultures and wolves and their endless lies

I’m a man with a chip on my shoulder and people wonder why

Things don’t always get any easier as you get older, the trick is to try

And rise above the low blows and all the bullshit thrown your way

Never be afraid to show your emotions and have your say

No matter how sensitive the issue for the truth shall prevail

If you get a gut feeling that something’s not quite right, then bail

Better than being cornered or pushed up hard against a rail

May the ship of peace, love and compassion begin to set sail

I've been stuck in the fieriest part of hell with no fucking escape route

People would walk all over me, they'd ring a bell and I would follow suit

But I've learnt a lesson every time I fell, no more shall they tell me what to do

I shall choose what I want to choose and that is to stay the fuck away from you

Do away with all the negative energy, in with the positive

Choose today to walk away from your enemies, choose to live

The life you’ve always wanted to live: free from exploitation

You’ve got it in you to be strong, stop chasing chemical elevation

To be free from its debilitating, toxic grip is to choose to be free again

It doesn’t matter in the least bit if you slip up every now and then

For nobody is perfect, yes, we are all beholden to different vices

At least if you make a go of it, there can no longer be any surprises

The time is now to break free from it, to try your hardest to fight it

All the indiscretions of shit cunts should duly be noted and counted

I've been stuck in the fieriest part of hell with no fucking escape route

People would walk all over me, they'd ring a bell and I would follow suit

But I've learnt a lesson every time I fell, no more shall they tell me what to do

I shall choose what I want to choose and that is to stay the fuck away from you

Life is a rocky road waiting to be negotiated and conquered

In order to overcome its test, ties with fuckheads must be severed

Don’t let them use and abuse you to the point that you blow your fuse

You can be kind and generous and not be taken advantage of too

You simply have to break away from a scene full of mean, heartless people

If your holy steeple is not surrounded by them, then they can do no evil

You don’t have to feel helpless and feeble to change the course of history

That they will turn on you and burn and exploit you is no real mystery

Forgive if you like, but make sure their misdeeds are etched in your memory

No longer the passive fool, they will now see stop signs when they look at me

I've been stuck in the fieriest part of hell with no fucking escape route

People would walk all over me, they'd ring a bell and I would follow suit

But I've learnt a lesson every time I fell, no more shall they tell me what to do

I shall choose what I want to choose and that is to stay the fuck away from you

SUNSHINE

I normally treat other people the way I want to be treated. 

But all these thieving scoundrels have made me feel defeated. 

I try to counteract widespread cruelty with acts of kindness.

It seems I've been suffering from a naive kind of blindness.

I'm so sick of their heartless ways, especially all the lying.

That's why I spent last night all broken, suicidal and crying. 

Every time I open my door there are people scoping out and prying.

I'm an easy target for those without morals, there's no denying.

Why ever happened to rules of engagement: no honour among thieves.

The things these arseholes have done to me, you would not believe. 

So I'm not sure now if I want to live or simply die in an opiate overdose.

I'm not cut out to handle this relentless abuse because I'm weaker than most.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.

So many times they've gone too far like toast that's burnt.

You'd think by now that this fool would have surely learnt

Not to be kind and generous towards wolves in sheep's clothing.

It merely leave me in a state of rage, despair and loathing.

Every time it happens again I ask myself "what was I thinking"?

As the ship of complacency I've been sailing on starts sinking.

And the same patterns of abuse and manipulation keep on repeating. 

The culprits are probably so proud of themselves they start boasting.

My mother keeps telling me to be weary of others’ ulterior motives.

If I'd only listened to her, this heartache wouldn't be so massive.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.

If I can't even trust my supposed friends, then who to trust?

Don't let the fuckheads break me in the end, now that's a must.

Now is not the time to go back into my shell and pretend

That everything will be alright if I simply let go and built a fence.

Nothing will change for the better until I put up some barrier.

And become weather proof and resilient like a seasoned warrior.

Time to erect some boundaries to protect against enemies

No longer will take me for a ride and do what they fancy.

For I will march on with the determination of a one man army.

To let them get away with such exploitation, that would be crazy.

Without you in my chaotic life, I would be nothing at all. 

I would simply fade away and not be able to stand up tall. 

You were there picking me up as others watched me fall.

My ray of sunshine when there's only darkness outside my door.