vision blurred
unable to focus
temptations swinging
back and forth
like an angry pendulum
poppy seeds transmogrified
walking assiduously
waiting impatiently
regression
return to the past
self-deceit
disappointment
an ocean of regrets
and the choices
I have made
are killing free time
reinforcing folly
beholden to a perfect fit
the bane of my existence
history repeating
a ball deflated
unable to shake off
the monkey on my back
it stalks me unremittingly