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i am the dissident poetician...i tear down fences with sardonic sardines and metaphysical cucumbers

Monday, August 29, 2016

ALMOST DIDN'T MAKE IT

I almost didn't make it
Almost never got to meet you
But I'm so glad I did
Having you in my life
Is one of the best things
That has ever happened to me
There's no denying it
You've given me more
Than I could have ever wanted
I don't deserve someone like you

Without you in my one life
The days would be dark and lonely
I'd be constantly in strife
If it wasn't for you, my one and only

I almost didn't find you
Would have ended up in a ditch
But I'm here with you now
People say you're too soft
But I wouldn't want you
Any other way at all
You're kindness has touched me
That place in my heart
Please don't change for anyone
Not even for a split second

Without you in my one life
The days would be dark and lonely
I'd be constantly in strife
If it wasn't for you, my one and only

I would jump through hoops
Even walk on broken glass
If it would bring me closer to you
I would punch a cop
Even stab fuckers with fits
If it meant you didn't have to lose 

I would walk through fire
Even trek a million miles
If it would bring a smile to your face
I would go without air
Even drag a heavy stone
If it meant your love would never fade

Without you in my one life
The days would be dark and lonely
I'd be constantly in strife
If it wasn't for you, my one and only

My one and only 
One and only
Never lonely
So glad I made it

My one and only
One and only
Never lonely
So glad I made it

Saturday, August 27, 2016

FAREWELL TO THE PSYCHIATRIC ZOO

You’ve been living in a psychiatric zoo, being fed boring, mass-produced food, doing hard time too
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you, even walk with wet feet in torn shoes, searching for clues
On how to ease your suffering, may songbirds sing for you and those walls fade away to nothing
They’re too busy searching for contraband that they don’t understand just what they’re destroying
Undeniably ruining your life, like a coward battering his fed up wife, holding you hostage inside
Taken for a ride as they try to strip you of all pride, at times it may feel like you won’t get out alive
But you will one fine day, not running uphill anymore or under attack, you will get your freedom back
No longer bound by chains or power games, there’s an end to your pain, your one life back on track
I’ll be waiting in the wings until something gives and they’re no longer denying you your autonomy
Until then I’ll be fighting for you, writing songs for you, doing anything it takes to make you happy

After the rain, comes a silver lining
We’ll be together, though there’s been bad timing
After the rain, comes a silver lining
Wash away the pain, the sun will start shining

They’ve been playing you for a fool, imposing their stupid rules, always keeping tabs on what you do
But there’s a crack in the fault line, rebellion’s tack growing over time, no longer shall they control you
You engage in your own form of cooking when nobody’s looking, as something big grows from nothing
You’ve broken free from restraints, having fun within constraints even though the phone never rings
Goodness injected within the threshold as records spin, amplifying the sound of freedom tenfold
Discarded insulin syringe, the evidence of sin, but you should take their drugs instead as you’re told
Swallow all the poison that you’re fed, battery in your head, don’t be defiant, be a compliant guinea pig
It’s their own graves that they dig, as you’re no longer taking it, breaking the fortress down bit by bit
By now you’ve had enough of their shit, feel like stabbing them with dirty fits, not your idea of bliss
Living day by day in this hole that’s so empty and cold, same old same old every day, had enough of this

After the rain, comes a silver lining
We’ll be together, though there’s been bad timing
After the rain, comes a silver lining
Wash away the pain, the sun will start shining

They may have you in a cage and shackled by chemical chains, but you will never give up, nor submit
They won’t change your non-compliant ways in defiant days, as you start a blaze and have fun doing it
High time to chuck a fit, kicking up a furious storm as you continue to depart from their stultifying norms
Laying out the hits with your sharpened wit, putting forth the arguments that knock theirs to the floor
What are you waiting for? Show them what you’ve got in store, give them a piece of your indignant mind
Break those ridiculous laws with seashells washed up upon the shore, the truth shall prevail in good time
What they’re doing is simply obscene, the orders passed on to the treating team can’t be justified by any means
All the dark times that you’ve seen, time for you to do a spring clean, do things as you damn well please
For they’re spreading a disease in the form of misery, the more they push, the more they make you angry 
If they don’t set you free, you’re willing to resort to force, bombs in the door, one day soon, they’ll be sorry

After the rain, comes a silver lining
We’ll be together, though there’s been bad timing
After the rain, comes a silver lining
Wash away the pain, the sun will start shining

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

COLD WET FEET

You care about me, I care about you too
I walked miles in the pouring rain just for you
There's just about nothing that I wouldn't do
Even got my feet wet inside of my torn shoes
You are the reason I get up in the morning
And by now you've had plenty of warning
About just how much of a bad boy that I am
So naughty I would walk through fire: understand?
Anything to bring myself closer to you
You are the reason I do all the things I do

My feet are wet, I'm feeling dead tired
I'm fucked in the head, so fucked you get me wired
You're so kind and wise, not just another liar
Come analyse the sum of my desires

You've certainly given me the greatest view
All the wonderful things I can see about you
You are so unique, one of a rare few
My generosity: you have never abused
Unlike so many other people out there
It warms my aching heart to know that you care
I'll be right with you here, there and everywhere
I would take a bullet for you, please be aware
When you are near me, there is magic in the air
The way they treat you is so fucking unfair

My feet are wet, I'm feeling dead tired
I'm fucked in the head, so fucked you get me wired
You're so kind and wise, not just another liar
Come analyse the sum of my desires

I'm consumed by blindness when it comes to you
In my eyes, there's nothing wrong you can do
You've been living the past few months in a zoo
You must be so frustrated and so confused
But don't fret now my dear, it's of no real use
Only your shackles and chains you've got to lose
I'll be by your side when you get your freedom back
An institution of oppression under attack
Escaping from their control is where things are at
You'll be so fucking happy while you're doing that

My feet are wet, I'm feeling dead tired
I'm fucked in the head, so fucked you get me wired
You're so kind and wise, not just another liar
Come analyse the sum of my desires

It's a hard slog every now and then
But I would do it all over and over again
Just to make you happy, to dry your tears
Won't let you be dragged down by the pain of years

It's a hard slog every now and then
But I would do it all over and over again
Just to make you happy, to dry your tears
Won't let you be dragged down by the pain of years

BRAND NAME SCUM

You really make me angry 
When you take what you fancy
Your excuses are empty
For you tell lies aplenty
You do what you always do
And keep doing it too
In front of all the crew
Nobody quite like you
It’s not the time for you to cruise
For you don’t have a hand to lose

You’ve got “scum” written into your forehead
All the people that you’ve left for dead
When I see you, my head is filled with dread
Meeting you in the first place is my biggest regret

You’ve really got quite some nerve
One to make things spin and swerve
You’re just another jerk
Whose charms never quite worked
You do what you always do 
And keep doing it too
Turning the old into new
Real piece of work, now that’s true
It may be time for you to move
What do you really have to lose?

You’ve got “scum” written into your forehead
All the people that you’ve left for dead
When I see you, my head is filled with dread
Meeting you in the first place is my biggest regret

You really make me angry 
When you take what you fancy
Your excuses are empty
For you tell lies aplenty
You do what you always do
And keep doing it too
In front of all the crew
Nobody quite like you
It’s not the time for you to cruise
For you don’t have a hand to lose

You’ve got “scum” written into your forehead
All the people that you’ve left for dead
When I see you, my head is filled with dread
Meeting you in the first place is my biggest regret

NO EXPECTATIONS

I've got no reason
Don't need a reason
To care about you
You're one of a few
I actually care for
Most humans ain't worth it
But you certainly are
In my eyes you're a star
Yes, you're gonna go far
Just like an old Corolla

No expectations
When loving you
Just celebrations
In finding you

No expectations
When helping you
Much anticipation
What you will do

It's the right season
The best of seasons
For starting afresh
Yes, things will be best
For you and for me
Love can set us both free
We're meant for each other
As if there's no others
Who exist in this place
Come put a smile on my face

No expectations
When loving you
Just celebrations
In finding you

No expectations
When helping you
Much anticipation
What you will do

Not enough feasting
Let's start the feasting
Upon each other's love

An ocean of love
Been swept off my feet
In the face of defeat
Fall right into your arms
Staying completely calm

Some things were meant to last
Just not ghosts from the past


No expectations
When loving you
Just celebrations
In finding you

No expectations
When helping you
Much anticipation
What you will do

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

As the wasted days of my troubled youth have now faded away, I’ve got even more to say
About the folly of a life that is constantly in strife, at the edge of a freshly sharpened knife
Used to care about social justice and politics, now the thing that gets me up is my next fix
In this game you have to be creative so you don’t lose your soul, have to learn new tricks
In a scene mostly amoral, I’m nobody special but have tried to uphold some standard of ethics
It’s a game which forces you to do things you’re ashamed of, without getting into specifics
The people are not all necessarily bad, but all junkies will do bad things just like birds will sing
Some would do anything to escape reality or be free from withdrawal symptoms so unrelenting
The truth of the matter is that it’s a disease of youth, it’s young lives that are often shattered
But I can no longer call myself a youth, and refuse to admit that I’m now an ageing outlier

Nice guys don’t fight back, not even under attack, that’s why they always finish last
Why would you say that? Because of the lack of trouble they’ve caused in the past?
But beware, all you complacent fools, there’s always an exception to the rule of cliché
Instead you may just lose your head when one snaps at the end of a frustrating day
I’m sure you’ve heard people say to watch out for the day when a nice guy finally snaps
You may just get a syringe to the eye, right before you die with a knife in your back
Can’t say that it was all that unexpected, watch out when the once meek get infected
With the anger of a spectre that once haunted Europe, nice guys don’t pick favourites
So be wary of those who appear to be meek, they may not be so weak, don’t be a turd
If you push and push again, you may just be on the receiving end of a powerful blizzard

Thursday, August 04, 2016

I could feel the pull of gravity when confronted by such tragedy caused a dirty low-down junkie
Who lost a piece of her own humanity while she was busy trying to save her own guilty behind
At the height of her insanity she misjudged his lack of tolerance, completely out of her mind?
What she did was unforgivable, her actions were fatal, my hatred for her transcends all of time
I hold her responsible for his death, tried to suck him dry until there was nothing fucking left
I yearn for her downfall in karma’s haunted halls, for she cared not for his fucking life at all
I hate snitches but I would scratch that itch to snitch on her without even thinking twice about it
Queen of witches, not even fit to inhabit hell's fieriest pits, a total and utter piece of shit
Because of her, my dear friend is no longer here, it wasn’t his day, or for that matter, his year
His mother’s life left in tatters, with her worst fears coming true, her eyes never short of tears

Monday, August 01, 2016

FRAYED EDGES

I’m glad that I wasn’t completely mad when I first became mad about you
I was really sad when I first met you, didn’t know what I was going to do
Then I found you in between the suffering of two, broken nonetheless
But defiant like a short person fighting a giant in the killing season
We are connected by mutual kindness and a naïve kind of blindness
That’s why people fuck us over, the ones who think themselves clever
But we’ll give in never ever and will be happy together for ever after
Our days will be filled with laughter, I won’t let anyone shaft her ever again
Though neither of us are truly free, we won’t let them drive us round the bend
They won’t let you be but around me, you’re perfectly free, no need to pretend

If only things could be best in this difficult test
Time strips away the of the frayed tips of the day
Never to my behest, nothing left for us to confess
Minds drift away to dreamland: the greatest place

It’s good we took our time to get to the same line of the romance story
It wasn’t conquest I was after when I blessed you, nor was I after glory
It took a while to bring about a smile to your face, written in a stormy haste
I yearn to taste your kiss, my special miss, it’s not a race to touch your face
That would be best like a perfect written test, pure ecstasy more or less
Though you are different from the rest, no accident that you like to rest
You’ve been through a lot, stuck in a plot to take away your autonomy
They should all be shot in the neck, red dot pointing right at the enemy
I share your pain in this twisted game that is life, I shall wield the same knife
As you do, jab arseholes with dirty fits too in the zoo, creating much strife

If only things could be best in this difficult test
Time strips away the of the frayed tips of the day
Never to my behest, nothing left for us to confess
Minds drift away to dreamland: the greatest place

Please don’t hurt yourself anymore, I’ll help you to settle all your scores
All your battles are mine now, as I get rattled by the injustice more and more
Together, we’ll be strong, like feathers in a song where they don’t belong
We’ll make right all the wrongs, shedding light on the bullshit we’ve seen all along
Take my hand and fly way, understand that you’ve made my day my dearest
We could play all day long, if you say what you want to say, enchanted forest
You’re more alive than the others, not dead inside, stripped of love and pride
Won’t call you mine because you are free around me all through space and time
I’m not blind to your kind ways, to better days ahead than all the tears you’ve shed
Though both our hearts have bled, it’s time to start the crime spree with glee

If only things could be best in this difficult test
Time strips away the of the frayed tips of the day
Never to my behest, nothing left for us to confess
Minds drift away to dreamland: the greatest place